tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-51641152164005583392024-03-19T18:38:33.964-04:00words on paperCatherinehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03207234949395215957noreply@blogger.comBlogger86125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5164115216400558339.post-24188573229215290592014-07-02T12:16:00.003-04:002014-07-02T12:16:31.786-04:00I started a new blog!I've moved over to http://fernunfurled.wordpress.com/Catherinehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03207234949395215957noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5164115216400558339.post-73208415453222611602014-04-13T10:22:00.001-04:002014-04-13T10:48:31.450-04:00Lenten seasonLent has traditionally been one of my favourite times in the Christian calendar, but this year, I find myself going through the motions. Rather than allowing time carved out of my busy schedule, I've been skipping steps and just hoping to get to the end of my papers before I run out of words and breath.<br />
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It's Palm Sunday today.<br />
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A day of new hope and deep sadness. (but mostly hope and mostly sadness)<br />
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The snow is melting, but I still feel its weight.<br />
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Catherinehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03207234949395215957noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5164115216400558339.post-82365583457506629302014-02-23T20:46:00.000-05:002014-02-23T20:46:31.176-05:00And it is AdventI am waiting. so much in my life makes me anxious and I sometimes wonder if right on the other side of that is joy.Catherinehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03207234949395215957noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5164115216400558339.post-72872841599970048712014-02-05T18:11:00.000-05:002014-02-05T18:11:14.666-05:00This needs a different title, any ideas?<div class="MsoNormal">
<u><span style="line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Oh, Baba Yaga I love you<o:p></o:p></span></span></u></div>
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<span style="line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Chicken bone magic<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Hidden hut in the forest<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Grandmother Monster<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Beware women who <o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">walk in forests unafraid.</span><o:p></o:p></span></div>
Catherinehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03207234949395215957noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5164115216400558339.post-28582196157166226892013-12-05T06:04:00.001-05:002014-04-13T10:24:06.384-04:00Advent Meditation: a ghazal<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="font-family: inherit;">purposeful silence awaiting night</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">candles lit, gyring, spiralling light<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">small starts, specks of dust and breath misty<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Mother Mary’s womb creating light<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">walking between faewilds and Christ<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">closest to God in the witching light<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">proclaim, proclaim, proclaim! come in<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">stillness, memory-carrying light<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">anxiety, embodied litany</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">catharsis, release, outpouring, light</span><o:p></o:p></div>
Catherinehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03207234949395215957noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5164115216400558339.post-21288363966626571832013-11-10T19:47:00.000-05:002013-11-13T13:09:20.714-05:00Letting go I am finishing a ten day cleanse today. It feels like a great accomplishment, and at the same time just the first step. I've been trying to let go of the idea that my body is something to be feared and to be more holistic in my approach to my body. By that I mean that my self is made up of both body and mind, and I'm working towards recognising that and living as though that were true.Catherinehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03207234949395215957noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5164115216400558339.post-86317850523724083522013-05-29T10:40:00.002-04:002013-05-29T11:09:04.233-04:00bad poetry of sadnessSome days I cry easy and some days it's all I do,<br />
but then there are dry weeks and months<br />
all the sadness burns my throat, a desert<br />
of tears.<br />
<br />
Some weeks I drown<br />
Some weeks I perish<br />
<br />
Some weeks I am joyful.Catherinehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03207234949395215957noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5164115216400558339.post-83590658769236337122013-05-19T10:10:00.000-04:002013-05-25T12:18:32.851-04:00In which I am distracted, or, writing a paper is like praying, kinda. Maybe I should just dance.Dancing is most like praying, right?<br />
<br />
Unless it is urgent, I get distracted. Even sometimes when it is.Catherinehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03207234949395215957noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5164115216400558339.post-88309484617864443722013-04-09T01:09:00.000-04:002013-04-10T18:38:23.188-04:00on disconnectingI feel the loss<br />
of facebook less<br />
than twitter<br />
<br />
I want the quick and easy<br />
expressivity.<br />
<br />
Especially when attempting<br />
to express grand<br />
philosophical<br />
ideas in a tiny format.Catherinehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03207234949395215957noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5164115216400558339.post-5581239442961165502013-03-24T13:16:00.001-04:002013-05-29T11:09:12.414-04:00Palm Sunday Reflections<br />
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There is something so lovely about light<o:p></o:p></div>
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something unphotographable<o:p></o:p></div>
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so unwordable<o:p></o:p></div>
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something about the Word<o:p></o:p></div>
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made flesh<o:p></o:p></div>
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made light<o:p></o:p></div>
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and life<o:p></o:p></div>
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I will mark ash<o:p></o:p></div>
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I will wave palms<o:p></o:p></div>
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I will rejoice<o:p></o:p></div>
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that he is triumphant<o:p></o:p></div>
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that he is risen<o:p></o:p></div>
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that he will come<o:p></o:p></div>
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again<o:p></o:p></div>
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and I remember<o:p></o:p></div>
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whenever the light is lovely.<o:p></o:p></div>
Catherinehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03207234949395215957noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5164115216400558339.post-68846271455407131372013-02-21T21:42:00.003-05:002013-03-02T19:18:09.084-05:00finding old wordsI was going over my finished journal to glean any tidbits of poetry or knowledge before I pack it away, and I found some words I had written to myself, some words I think may not have been my words.<br />
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You have a choice Catherine, you can choose to be anxious or you can choose to trust God. This is not the last time you will be offered this choice, nor is it the first. You have failed and you will fail again, but you have also succeeded and you will succeed again.<br />
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You have known the kindness of God, continue to search it out. Search for the heart of God. Do not be afraid, know that God is good. He is justice and mercy, he is holy. He desires your heart more than you know, more that you imagine or are willing to believe.<br />
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Your heart is beautiful, it is created by God, known by Him, loved by Him. There is more right with your heart than you know, and it's not up to you to decide what is wrong with it. Trust God to shape it as He wishes. Do as He says. Trust that it will result in your good, even if you can't see it right away. Trust that you have His spirit in you, that you can hear Him. Listen to that small still voice inside you.Catherinehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03207234949395215957noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5164115216400558339.post-69616072093728023062013-02-05T23:34:00.001-05:002013-02-05T23:38:02.234-05:00BodySome days I don't feel connected to my body at all. I feel like it's not mine, or like it is just a suit my self is wearing. That is not the truth. I want to learn to not only appreciate my form, which, mostly I do, but to actually feel like my body is <i>mine, </i>as in part of my whole self. I want to treat my body with as much respect as I treat my spirit or my soul, because after all, my body houses the Holy Spirit. I want to live in it with comfort and grace, to feel connected enough to be able to offer it as a sacrifice daily.<br />
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Some days I feel like all I am is breasts. And hips. This is also not true, but this is part of the problem. I try to take up less space, be less noticeable. I've spent so much time caring what other people thought of my body, worrying that I was showing too much or not enough, hating my body, learning to love my body, learning to not care, that in some ways I've just shut that connection down. I am not my body, because my body hurts people, causes people to lust, and I don't want to hurt people. I am not my body because you think it is ugly and I don't want to be ugly, or too sexy, or... That is not the truth. <i><b>The truth is I am my body and I have to learn to live in it</b></i>. Trying to distance myself from my breasts is not the answer. Letting somebody else determine what my appropriate body is cannot be part of the answer. Catherinehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03207234949395215957noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5164115216400558339.post-49916603370041157392013-01-06T14:12:00.001-05:002013-06-16T21:17:28.741-04:00One Word 2013I've been debating whether or not to take up this idea this year, and I still haven't decided. Maybe because I can't choose one word. I've thought of rest, speak, listen, and prophet so far, and I think they are all connected--which is maybe why I'm having such a hard time picking one. Anybody have any thoughts?<br />
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<a href="http://oneword365.com/" target="_blank">http://oneword365.com/</a>Catherinehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03207234949395215957noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5164115216400558339.post-87406249569924778662013-01-01T23:56:00.001-05:002013-01-01T23:56:44.582-05:00New Year<!--[if gte mso 9]><xml>
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<![endif]--><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="line-height: 115%;">My
resolution for 2013 is to get past the surface of my daily thoughts; to get down to the
depths of honesty where my heart is dark and broken, and to see what is growing in
the cracks like dandelions through a city sidewalk. </span></span></span>Catherinehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03207234949395215957noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5164115216400558339.post-69326050234789347352012-12-05T09:06:00.001-05:002013-02-02T11:14:33.213-05:00modesty in a Christian context<a href="http://nowmyeyeshaveseen.tumblr.com/post/37249217695/dec-4-modesty-discussion" target="_blank">A letter from the women of Providence, my church, on the topic of modesty.</a><br />
<br />
I have struggled with the concept of modesty quite a lot, believing that it is primarily a humble attitude in a person, not limited to the clothing women wear, and I'm so proud of the women in this church for the stand they are taking.Catherinehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03207234949395215957noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5164115216400558339.post-77067968329941248062012-11-23T10:50:00.002-05:002012-11-27T00:16:15.178-05:00preparing for Lent I know, Lent is still pretty far away, but it is one of my favourite Christian traditions. It has been since I read about it in a book many many moons ago, when I was about 14. I start planning what I'm going to give up months in advance. I relish the idea of the upcoming sacrifice. That probably says something about me, that I like to give something up only for a defined period of time. I'm great at it usually, provided that it is something concrete--say junk food, not my snooze button. (The snooze button experiment of 2000-something was a definite failure.) This year I've been trying to identify what would be the most beneficial thing to give up, and I'm thinking it won't be something concrete. I'm thinking it will be harder. I'm thinking that what I'm going to try to give up is the fear of man, their perceptions of me, or least my perception of their perceptions. I'm thinking that the idea behind Lent isn't just to sacrifice something, or to relish the feeling of asceticism I get, but rather to take the time to look at what is holding me back from Jesus, and to let go of that, to focus my eyes upon Jesus. And I'm also thinking, why wait?<br />
<br />
If I know that this is a stumbling block for me, and it is, why wait? I spend far too much time being paralyzed by how people will react, and often that fear stops me from acting at all. It wraps me up in my head, imagining their judgement, their disapproval, and beating myself up with it. And that needs to stop. The only judgement I should be concerning myself with is God's.Catherinehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03207234949395215957noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5164115216400558339.post-83831902368294512542012-10-20T22:47:00.003-04:002012-10-20T22:47:50.052-04:00The Lonely LandCedar and jagged fir<br />
uplift sharp barbs<br />
against the gray<br />
and cloud-piled sky;<br />
and in the bay<br />
blown, spume and windrift<br />
and thin, bitter spray <br />
snap<br />
at the whirling sky;<br />
and the pine trees<br />
lean one way.<br />
<br />
A wild duck calls<br />
to her mate,<br />
and the ragged<br />
and passionate tones<br />
stagger and fall,<br />
and recover,<br />
and stagger and fall,<br />
on those stones--<br />
are lost<br />
in the lapping of water<br />
on smooth, flat stones.<br />
<br />
This is a beauty<br />
of dissonance,<br />
this resonance<br />
of stony strand,<br />
this smoky cry<br />
curled over a black pine<br />
like a broken<br />
and wind-battered branch<br />
when the wind<br />
bends the tops of the pines<br />
and curdles the sky<br />
from the north.<br />
<br />
This is the beauty<br />
of strength<br />
broken by strength<br />
and still strong.<br />
<br />
A.J.M. SmithCatherinehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03207234949395215957noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5164115216400558339.post-74672621848466087732012-10-19T22:42:00.001-04:002012-10-20T18:06:44.515-04:00I have a tumblr now. But I don't use it a lot.<a href="http://catvmcg.tumblr.com/" target="_blank">But sometimes I post pictures.</a>Catherinehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03207234949395215957noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5164115216400558339.post-60933435679214400222012-10-09T20:10:00.001-04:002012-10-09T20:10:17.272-04:00everyday object poem<span style="font-family: inherit;">smells like blood </span><br style="font-family: inherit;" /><span style="font-family: inherit;">and silicone and soap—</span><br style="font-family: inherit;" /><span style="font-family: inherit;">dusty and sharp, </span><br style="font-family: inherit;" /><span style="font-family: inherit;">like iron filings </span><br style="font-family: inherit;" /><span style="font-family: inherit;">or old copper pennies.</span><br style="font-family: inherit;" /><br style="font-family: inherit;" /><span style="font-family: inherit;">began white, virginal</span><br style="font-family: inherit;" /><span style="font-family: inherit;">translucent—</span><br style="font-family: inherit;" /><br style="font-family: inherit;" /><span style="font-family: inherit;">now the colour of tarnished hopes</span><br style="font-family: inherit;" /><span style="font-family: inherit;">and new (childless) plans</span><br style="font-family: inherit;" /><br style="font-family: inherit;" /><span style="font-family: inherit;">holds the sloughed,</span><br style="font-family: inherit;" /><span style="font-family: inherit;">rich blood</span><br style="font-family: inherit;" /><span style="font-family: inherit;">that is pulled </span><br style="font-family: inherit;" /><span style="font-family: inherit;">from my womb</span><br style="font-family: inherit;" /><br style="font-family: inherit;" /><span style="font-family: inherit;">by a thin, tapered</span><br style="font-family: inherit;" /><span style="font-family: inherit;">end.</span><br style="font-family: inherit;" />Catherinehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03207234949395215957noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5164115216400558339.post-25221222065941639492012-10-09T20:09:00.001-04:002012-10-09T20:09:32.571-04:00Found Poem<span style="font-family: inherit;">inside this triangle,</span><br style="font-family: inherit;" /><span style="font-family: inherit;">rebels were inspired</span><br style="font-family: inherit;" /><span style="font-family: inherit;">to be in a state of insurrection</span><br style="font-family: inherit;" /><br style="font-family: inherit;" /><span style="font-family: inherit;">their actions subsequently</span><br style="font-family: inherit;" /><span style="font-family: inherit;">match their assumption that </span><br style="font-family: inherit;" /><span style="font-family: inherit;">rebellion was going on elsewhere—</span><br style="font-family: inherit;" /><br style="font-family: inherit;" /><span style="font-family: inherit;">and later their realisation </span><br style="font-family: inherit;" /><span style="font-family: inherit;">that they were alone </span><br style="font-family: inherit;" /><span style="font-family: inherit;">in the fight. Open rebellion unraveled—</span><br style="font-family: inherit;" /><br style="font-family: inherit;" /><span style="font-family: inherit;">some survival of the old </span><br style="font-family: inherit;" /><span style="font-family: inherit;">sentiments—this old agrarian agenda</span><br style="font-family: inherit;" /><span style="font-family: inherit;">(especially in the northern parts, </span><br style="font-family: inherit;" /><br style="font-family: inherit;" /><span style="font-family: inherit;">where the two are most </span><br style="font-family: inherit;" /><span style="font-family: inherit;">likely to have overlapped)</span><br style="font-family: inherit;" /><span style="font-family: inherit;">drifted back into the various parts</span><br style="font-family: inherit;" /><br style="font-family: inherit;" /><span style="font-family: inherit;">scattered by bad weather,</span><br style="font-family: inherit;" /><span style="font-family: inherit;">a footnote in history was </span><br style="font-family: inherit;" /><span style="font-family: inherit;">unraveling that night.</span><br /><br /><br />Catherinehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03207234949395215957noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5164115216400558339.post-24630909188093126242012-10-09T20:07:00.001-04:002012-10-09T20:08:03.325-04:00Clementine<span style="font-family: inherit;">Swirls of ink thoughts</span><br style="font-family: inherit;" /><span style="font-family: inherit;">inhabiting corners</span><br style="font-family: inherit;" /><span style="font-family: inherit;">of pages everywhere</span><br style="font-family: inherit;" /><br style="font-family: inherit;" /><span style="font-family: inherit;">Poetry borderlands</span><br style="font-family: inherit;" /><span style="font-family: inherit;">defined and liminal</span><br style="font-family: inherit;" /><span style="font-family: inherit;">sketched in words</span><br style="font-family: inherit;" /><br style="font-family: inherit;" /><span style="font-family: inherit;">that taste and sound.</span><br style="font-family: inherit;" />Catherinehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03207234949395215957noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5164115216400558339.post-79669534973782244472012-09-03T01:43:00.001-04:002012-10-08T18:18:29.294-04:00like noses<!--[if gte mso 9]><xml>
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and my heart is broken</div>
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and broken </div>
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and broken</div>
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and I wonder if hearts are like noses</div>
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that need to be broken </div>
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to be straitened</div>
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to be righted</div>
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and I know, oh I know</div>
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that my heart </div>
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will be broken again</div>
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on my own </div>
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wickedness</div>
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and I hope, oh I hope </div>
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that my heart </div>
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will be broken again</div>
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on God’s love</div>
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Catherinehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03207234949395215957noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5164115216400558339.post-15629074821316300992012-09-01T12:40:00.000-04:002012-10-08T18:17:56.973-04:00Sad poem that I loveNeglect<br />R. T. Smith<br />
<br />Is the scent of apple boughs smoking<br />in the woodstove what I will remember<br />of the Red Delicious I brought down, ashamed<br />
<br />that I could not convince its limbs to render fruit?<br />Too much neglect will do that, skew the sap's<br />passage, blacken leaves, dry the bark and heart.<br />
<br />I should have lopped the dead limbs early<br />and watched each branch with a goshawk's eye,<br />patching with medicinal pitch, offering water,<br /><br />
compost and mulch, but I was too enchanted<br />by pear saplings, flowers and the pasture,<br />too callow to believe that death's inevitable<br /><br />
for any living being unloved, untended.<br />What remains is this armload of applewood<br />now feeding the stove's smolder. Splendor<br /><br />
ripens a final time in the firebox, a scarlet<br />harvest headed, by dawn, to embers.<br />Two decades of shade and blossoms - tarts<br /><br />
and cider, bees dazzled by the pollen,<br />spare elegance in ice - but what goes is gone.<br />Smoke is all, through this lesson in winter<br /><br />
regret, I've been given to remember.<br />Smoke, and Red Delicious apples redder<br />than a passing cardinal's crest or cinders.<br />
<br />
taken from http://www.loc.gov/poetry/180/Catherinehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03207234949395215957noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5164115216400558339.post-7974406430752953802012-07-07T00:27:00.000-04:002013-09-29T00:56:17.535-04:00storya landscape sketch<br />
a colour palette<br />
some characters<br />
with some flaws<br />
knitted together--<br />
in a wavy afghan<br />
something homely<br />
and lovely <br />
held loosely in my mind<br />
and beginning to take<br />
shape on paper<br />
of paper<br />
and delicately inscribed<br />
so as not to lose<br />
any life in the pinning<br />
down of the butterfly's<br />
wings<br />
<br />Catherinehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03207234949395215957noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5164115216400558339.post-40928208117535398842012-07-04T00:40:00.000-04:002012-10-08T18:17:56.975-04:00bedtimethere is a certain peace<br />
after everyone has gone to sleep<br />
music of my childhood playing<br />
competing with the rotating fan<br />
reading words of beauty and wisdom<br />
knowing that all shall be well,<br />
and all shall be well--<br />
and all manner of things<br />
shall be well <br />
<br />Catherinehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03207234949395215957noreply@blogger.com0